Friday, December 10, 2010

T.R.A.P Names r important

Ace smiled coolly at the huge clump of girls shoving and pushing to get to him once the bell had rang, and some even appeared before the last bell rang for dismissal. All of them had a reason to be here---Him. Ace didn't care about any of them, though at first he thought they had some feeling behind those smiling faces but he had found out long ago that a smile always meant something bad. In this case, the girls wanted to get his attention so he would ask them out and waste his money and time. Their reasons were the same as always, since he was smart and had good looks according to the huge glob in front of him, they needed help with their homework or test. It pissed him off the way people stuck up to him in order to get something from him.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Heart Breaker?

Hes my heart breaker. He walks by me and i can see my heart shattering into a million of pieces, pieces that will never reconnect to form my heart. He will always be in my heart but i have lost my heart, he took it and fixed it. He gave it back and broke it again. Hes my heart breaker, my one and only heart breaker. The only person who has ever gotten seen my heart. The only person who loved me and then broke my heart. The only person who fixed my heart and broke it. Hes my heart breaker and my heart will forever be with him.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Hes A Fighter (6 Years Later)

We Got Married~tHe EnD~

Hes A Fighter (And He Luvs Me)

I graduated for the university and got a job working with young children and elders. The job suited me well, it helped me forget about my pains and help the people who needed my help. After work Eli would pick me up and take me out to eat and then drive me home. One day Eli took me to the restaurant that Kiven had taken me to on our first real date. I closed my eyes and the memories rushed back. When i opened my eyes Kiven stood in front of me instead of Eli. I looked around for Kiven's ..."date" but he was alone. Suddenly Kiven pulled me to him and started dragging me out to the parking lot. I held back the tears as the memories of the high school year flooded back. Kiven pinned me to the wall, his hands were balled into fists, i wasnt afraid of him but i wanted to slip away from him to hide from him, the only person who had taken my heart and left nothing.  Why did you do it? he asks I finally look up to his face, his hair was no different. Wheres your girl friend i ask instead. Standing right in front of me Im not your girl friend...anymore Yea you are, i never agreed to break up and i dont remember even mentioning it. Your one year older than me and long distance relationships never work so i broke it up before it became worse i replied. Look the only girl i was in a relationship with is you so if thats your excuse you need a better one or just except me as your boy friend before you waste more time. He was seriously mad at me...i thought you would fall for another girl and then break it up...Kiven didnt even bother saying anything... He just Kissed me .So are you ready to be my girl friend again? Are you sure? i ask YEA im sure I've been looking for you for the past 5 years!! I only found you today because Eli called me..Kiven was silent for a long time before he asked me " are you in love with Eli?" NOOO!! where did you get that from? By now i was crying so hard i couldn't see and Kiven was holding me to his chest like he did in high school making me cry harder. You seemed to be really close to Eli so i thought...Kiven was saying before i wailed- I really missed you Kiven...Love you he simply says will you be my girl friend again? Love you i manage to say but that's enough for Kiven he hugged me harder and we kissed again.~END~

Hes A Fighter (He Doesn't Need Me)

Today is the last day of my sophomore year and the day after i walked away from Kiven. I barely made it out of bed and to school my chest felt like there was an invisible cut there that hurt like the devil but i was ready to forget and move on..which is what Kiven was probably doing. During the day i got lost a dozen times i didnt have anyone to pull me around anymore only Eli had been there to help me to my classes and to lunch. After school he walked me to the exit, i was relived he hadn't said anything about Kiv v v "him". I must of ran into some people but i didnt remember i just headed in the direction of home. As i passed the exit i got pulled by someone. I turned around so the person would know it was the wrong person and tried to walk off again only to be tugged back. I turned around to see Kiven holding on to my arm. I twisted my arm away and walked off. My chest now felt like someone had taken a scoop out of it without giving me painkillers. I didnt hear Kiven call out to me or anything else i just walked off like a robot not hearing anything not reacting to anything only doing the things i was programed to do. At home i collapsed on my bed and sobbed. ~END~
That summer i didnt remember much. All i know is that Kiven, Eli, Ray, Alex, and the twins came by a lot but i didnt let them come in if Kiven was there. I stopped answering the door, giving that job to my parents who by now knew that Kiven was someone i didnt want to see so they made up excuses and soon he stopped coming by although the rest of the gang still did. I became really close to Eli since he was to be a senior with me next year and Kiven's best friend. When summer ended i no longer had any pain in my chest. All i had was an empty space.~END~
Senior year passed pretty much the same as summer. I buried my self in school work and club activities with Eli. Eli helped me through a lot of pain over the summer after i explained my reason for leaving Kiven. Eli didnt believe that Kiven would forget me but i didnt believe him. From time to time i would remember Kiven and i managed to smile. My grades came out as all As but i hardly cared. Kiven probably had another girl friend by now. After all he had gotten me to fall for him in less than a month. I started applying for the universities and colleges. I left out the university that Kiven was in, the pain would be too much.~END~
University year was the same as senior year i threw myself in study and work. Eli had joined the same university as i did so we worked together. The empty space that Kiven filled up would never be filled up but Eli was a good friend to me so i was getting through. ~END~

Discriptions

Kiven: Black Hair and Eyes Lean Longish/Shortish Haircut
Eli: Dark Eyes and Brown Hair Leanish but shorter than Kiven, Long Hair
Ray: Light brown eyes, black hair, taller than Eli and Kiven and Short Hair
Alex: Hazel Eyes and Raven Black hair same height as Eli, Long Bangs a few strands of long hair hanging in the back
Chan:(twin with Chen)Black Eyes Black Hair a little taller than Eli short/long hair
Chen:(twin with Chan)Black Eyes Black Hair a little taller than Chan long/short hair
Me/I: I have long Coal Black Hair, and chocolate brown eyes and im about 5'5 and i look weird....Kiven wont agree but he wont see

Hes A Fighter "But Im Not"

He hit that girl and then when i told him not too he hit me so i just fought back ...before i knew it i was winning and i hadnt noticed...O i say, i guess the girl is...never mind. Seriously you have to eat a real lunch! Kevin grins and pulls me over to him and sits me down next to him. Aren't your friends going to be worried about you? i dont have any friends they are just some people who are in the same class. Hmmm that means i can keep you here then..Wait what about your friends aren't THEY going to be worried about you? My friends have been standing outside the door for the past 15 mins...hey! Eli i know you are out there come in Kevin yells I turn around to see 5 guys come in some were grinning and one looked guilty. This girl here.Kevin points to me. Said i should eat a real lunch...but you guys said this was a real lunch. I look at the guys and i see that they are all eating the same thing,chips. I roll my eyes..The bell rings so i stand up only to be pulled down by Kevin AGAIN. Grr Kevin grins and points out each guy naming them...Eli, Alex, Chen, Ray, and the guilty looking one Chan who had thought of spying on Kiven. I glare at Kevin can we go now? im going to be late. He just grins and takes his sweet time to get up and drags me to my English class...How did you know? i ask I followed you yesterday he says and walks off. ok?! i walk into class and the bell rings as i sit down...Kevin was probably late because he walked me to my class, ugh the guy was annoying and sweet..too bad he had a girl friend, but why wasnt he sitting with her? O wait maybe it was just today since my stomach was growling.~END~
The next day in home economics we made some cake so i took it with me along with the lunch i prepared for Kiven and his gang of chip monsters. At the end of math class i hand him the cake and lunch and attempt to walk out the door. But nope Kiven pulls me back and drags me to the roof. His friends are already there with their bags of chips. I hand them the lunch i made for them and try to escape again. I dont even make it to the door. While they were eating i started digging around in Kiven's bag and i found his math quiz..the score was barely passing. I took out my math book and started correcting the problems and then wrote a note on his quiz and slipped out. First Escape and the last ~End~
~2 Weeks Later~ 
Kevin is still dragging me around to lunch and back, he doesnt let me out of his sight when we are eating lunch because i sneaked out last time. After school i help him with his math problems and in between periods Kiven drags me to my classes. I was going to seriously fall for the guy!  He was hard to avoid because he knows all my classes and all the routes i take even if i change my routes he seems to always knows. His friends are no help, why is he spending time with me if he has a girl friend? I asked him when he finally stopped dragging me...when we reached the roof. Why are you spending time with me and not your girlfriend? i asked. He was quite for a while and then he turned around suddenly and kissed me~END~
When we finally pulled away i stared at him hoping for a explanation..he sighed i thought you knew, i didnt have a girl friend before but i do now, you are my girlfriend. You mean girl friend girl friend? Yea.  i blushed turned away only to be pulled into a hug by Kevin. My name is spelled Kiven by the way he tells me, confused i look up and he takes the chance to kiss me again...~END~
Kiven smiles the first real smile and i couldnt take it i went up and kissed him making him blush and making me laugh.~END~
Near the end of my junior year i started thinking about  Kiven and his friends who i have taken as brothers..except for Kiven he was going to graduate soon kiven and i would end up alone except for Eli who is Kivens best friend but a year younger like me. I felt like crying so much and so tired of trying, at lunch i didnt notice Kiven dragging me, by now i was used to it, he grabs lunch for me and i make him a "real" lunch. Today i didnt touch my lunch i just sat there next to Kiven, and somehow he noticed even though he was talking with his friends and grabbed me and pushed me down so my head was on his shoulder. I really loved him..so i told him, making him blush and me laugh so hard that i start crying. I almost didnt hear him say it back....but i heard him say I luv you back even if it was almost a whisper. ~END~
The end of this year Kiven was going to leave to college, and we started to grow apart well i did, i guess it was to protect myself from the pain, i know he would probably find some other girl to fall for and i would be forgotten so i drifted away from him slowly. It was useless he kept pulling me back and forcing me to stay with him. The last day, the day of his graduation i put on a dress and put on some make-up and said bye to him. That was all i said before i turned away and walked away from him without looking back...

I Mite Luv U But I Wont Hav U

Trying so hard to make you  luv me. I keep making mistakes over and over again, what am I doing wrong? What is making you turn away from me? Who can I be to make you look at me again? Am i really that useless?Nothing that i can do? But why do even you have to look away, i always trusted you to help me...even if i became so selfish and unbearable. I understand i luv you but i wont have you because im not good enough for you. Im still fighting the losing battle,even though i want to fall down a sleep i keep fighting hoping that one day I will win and you would turn back and look at me. My life is just excuses that you have finally seen through. My cover is blown i have to find a way to fix it all but will...will you wait for me?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOREkPq1aVQ

Friday, November 12, 2010

Hes A Fighter

My years at high school could not of been better, well except for the last part of the last year when ...the heart break began. Lunch bell rang and I rushed to lunch as usual, and as usual the line was as long as it was promised not to be...im just saying that it was really long like REALLY long. I sighed and got in back of the person at the end of the line. When i finally got to the beginning of the line i was ready to give up. But then the return route was just as long so i just endured it. When i finally arrived at the usual table i sit at because i know some of the people. I ate my lunch and just as i finished up the table behind us erupted with a scream. Behind me two teens guys had started fighting, I was viewing it as everyone else, as an outsider. It seemed like the taller guy was bullying the smaller boy so i was siding with the smaller guy. When the fight finally cooled down the guys were taken away i talked about it to the people at the my table and we all sided for the smaller guy. The next week my schedule was changed because i got transferred to a home economic class. Now i had a new class for math. Aw now i had to try to make friends all over again. I was seated next to another person who was absent...well i thought "he" was absent. Just as the bell rang the taller guy who had been fighting walked in. Nice...next to a guy who was in a fight and hadn't even been expelled...wonder what the story was. I turn around and stare at the board. Did i get transferred to a lower class? I already know all this i think as i dig around in my bag for my notes. Mhmm i already learned this...another trip to the councilor awwww i wanted to go to the library. I take out some paper and copy down the UN-needed notes while the guy next to me starts sleeping. Ok?! he sits right in front of the teacher...Just then the teacher yells at the guy next to you which is when i find out his name is Kevin. The teacher asks for Kevin's notes at the end of the period so as i walk out i slip him my notes i wont need them not when i would probably be transferred again. I leave and head to English.~END~
After school i head to the councilor's office to change my classes again. I explain that i had already passed the lesson that the teacher was teaching and if i could be transferred to a higher class at this point i hear a person coming in behind me, i turn around and see Kevin. Err i'll talk to you tomorrow you say to your councilor and slip past Kevin. At the library i pick some books and hang out with some people i know before my parents pick me up. ~END~
Today in math i see Kevin again and take notes since i might not be transferred out...and once again Kevin is asleep and the teacher is teaching a lesson I learned 3 weeks ago. Im bored i mutter to myself. Same as always the teacher yells at Kevin to give him the notes...ugh i cant take this im going to transfer. I unknowingly give my notes to Kevin and leave the class thinking about what to say to the councilor. After school i manage to convince my councilor that i should be transferred to another math class. As i walk out i nearly run into Kevin AGAIN. Seriously the guy is everywhere!...i squeeze past him. I notice that my schedule is mixed up again so i head out to find the class then walked home.~END~
In my new math class i notice that the class is still a little behind but not behind enough for me to be bored. As the bell rings on the next day i see Kevin walk in and sits in the empty seat next to me...what is he doing here? I wait to see if hes really in the roll call,which he is...as usual i take notes but Kevin isn't asleep because i can feel his stare on my paper, thinking hes just copying my notes i ignore it and as usual i rush out of class..well i tried to today except Kevin pulled me back. I turn back and stare at him...maybe he needs my notes, i hand him my notes and try to walk off but he just pulls me back making me seriously mad. I was really hungry!!!! and the line was probably going to get longer. No one would be waiting for me at least since all of my friends had gone to another school, and i was really bad at making friends. I glare at Kevin now but he just grins making me glare harder. He stands up but still doesnt let go of my arm making me even more angrier because he was taking forever. My stomach growls and i turn to glare at him only to see that his grin has disappeared and replaced with a guilty look. You where rushing to lunch? he asks Yea...i didnt eat breakfast so im pretty hungry manage to say. Something connected in his head and he started pulling me out of the class and to the junior lunch line. Hey i cant go in this line im not old enough. I know that is all he says Annoyed i try to pull away again but he only pulls me along faster []:< . When he gets into the cafeteria faster than i do when i get into the sophomore line. He stares at me and i finally get it. Kevin was trying to get me lunch...um its ok i can just get into line but he just scowls at me so i meekly grab some food. At the exit you i thank him and try to head off but he pulls you along with him AGAIN. He starts going up the steps for the roof. Wait we cant go up here its banned but he just ignores me. He opens the door and i forget that we arent suppose to be up here. The sky looked like you could touch it...while i was staring Kevin tried to shove food at me. I grab the salad before he spilled it and started eating. Kevin just takes out a bag of chips and lays down. Arent you going to eat i ask I am he replys i mean like real food. this is real food. No i mean like a lunch! this is lunch the whole time i was getting angry but he just grinned. Did you know you look good when you mad, cuz you have an expression. I stare at him blankly...was he the same guy that got into a fight? why did you get into the fight last week i ask. he turns away and mutters something. What is it? i ask then i hear his stomach growls. psh guys...i grab my bread bun and throw it at him. Ouch! what the...oh thanks eat something real tomorrow! i scowl at him He grins which makes me scowl harder. He turns around and tells me about the fight....